Chantal Kreviazuk - All I Can Do

A piece of music that is suitable for me.. (^__^)v

When you're on your own

When you're at a fork in the road

You don't know which way to go

There's too many suns in our rows

You haven't laughed in a while

When you can't even fake a smile

When you feel ashamed

The uniform don't make you brave

All I can do is love you to pieces

Give you a shoulder to cry when you need it

When the day is long

And the night is coming down on you

All I can do, all I can do, all I can do

When you forget your name

And the pleasure can't disguise your pain

And you don't feel the same

I won't forget the love you made

All I can do is love you to pieces

Give you a shoulder to cry when you need it

When the day is long

And the night is coming down on you

All I can do, all I can do, all I can do

What a lovely day to shape your dreams

And you don't even have to sleep

You can make it what you want to be

You can fly away

You can change your name

You can have a happy face

It can be so real

Ohh

All I can do is love you to pieces

Give you a shoulder to cry when you need it

When the day is long

And the night is coming down on you

All I can do, all I can do, all I can do

Is all that I can do

Good Luck Fiancé!

Tomorrow he's off to Pahang for a conference.

and later will be around here and there for more conference and observation.

He'll be pretty busy this month.

So I'm taking this opportunity to wish him all the luck in the word.

"All the best for your presentation sweet buns"

"Please take extra care of yourself and don't forget to pack essential stuff okay, especially soap, clean clothes and toothpaste..teehehe"

May your journey be blessed and I'll pray for your safety everyday and night.

Will be missing you and will be excitedly waiting for you once you've finish everything okay.

Eat well and don't be naughty (^__^)

Lots of love,

Your Fiancée

The Things I Do

Since I'm doing ROS for two weeks in SMK Gajah Berang. I shall use Bahasa Melayu for this column.

Waaaa lame gile kot tak update blog. Saye sudah menjadi seorang guru yang tidak aktif mengajar di SMK Gajah Berang..merangkap sekolah mak dan adik. Maka selama dua minggu saya mampu menyimpan wang yang sangat banyak...teehehe

ape2 pun inilah rutin harian selama 2 minggu kat sekolah ni

Pukul 6 pagi bangun *macam biasa kalu nak pegi i4p pun*

kemas katil,

mandi,

pakai baju,

solat,

solek sat *pupuk bedak aje sebab nanti mak bebel, colet gincu kat bibir*

gosok tudung,

pakai tudung,

angkat beg masuk keje,

pakai kasut dan stoking dalam kete,

turun kete pegi pejabat tanda tangan kehadiran

terus gi bilik guru

bukak kipas *antara yang awal lah katekan*

duduk mengeliat

bukak laptop buat keje *berterusan sampai kol 2*

tandatangan sebelum balik

CABUTTTTT~

agak normal lah tu untuk orang yang tak boleh mengajar dan hanya memantau, tanye itu ini tulis report ect2. tapi ape yang membanggakan ialah saye dapat menyiapkan bertan2 kerja dalam mase 2 minggu ni...alhamdulillah dengan kesempatan mase dan kudrat yang diberi.

lepas ni masuk i4p dah buleh rilek2 sket dan fokus pada kerja2 jangka panjang yang mmg lah panjang (T__T)

Perkara yang baru yang boleh dibanggakan

Bace surat khabar,

belanje mak makan sarapan

tolong cikgu2 dalam bilik guru susun exam paper die orang

tau lah serba sedikit pasal rumah tangga

spend time ngan famili

siap kerja sekolah

buat network dgn guru2

cungkil resepi dan petua2 dari mereka

tak de lah banyak sangat tapi amat berbaloi pengalaman dan ilmu yang diterima.

alhamdulillah yang tak terhingga lah walaupun kerja mmg banyak tapi Allah masih sayangkan diri ini dengan memberi kelapangan hati dan minda untuk menanganinya dengan mudah tanpa masalah. alhamdulillah juga kepada orang2 yang sentiasa membantu, menggalak dan menyokong saye. *ceh macam menang award plak*

*sambil menulis blog ni tengah dengar amalan2 yang ustaz kat dalam bilik guru citer untuk pendiding rumah dan diri sendiri*

mende menarik *pendinding harian ialah amalan membaca "subhanallah, alhamdulillah dan Allahhuakbar x33 kali lepas solat" baru jap tadi dengar..teehehe

oklah dah 2 3 post tak letak gambar kan?? sebabnya malas dan tak leh load banyak2 *atau mungkin diri sendiri yang tak tau hehe*

over n out~

Brink of tears umm~ make that CRYING!

Today's my second of BIG and we did a Kembara activity hunting for clues and train a little bit of survival skill. Tiring but fun.

That's not the point as to why i'm writing this blog.

The main highlight here is that..today marks the day when i finally loose it.

I cried..yeah I CRIED in the mosque

and thank God my dear Mala consult me with my issues at home.

She didn't do much but to listen helps a lot in elevating my compressed feelings towards this house.

I've decided to back out and not live with the fellow chaps.

I want a sense of fresh air..

I want someone to cling onto when I don't really have anybody to rely on

*writing this makes me in tears again*

I wanted so much for people in the house to know that teamwork pays a lot in a household.

I want them to understand that I too want to be involved in the chit chats they created.

All this while I've been suppressing my isolated-ness by trying to make myself happy in class.

But BIG just made me a passive girl not wanting to talk daze alone.

I've never become this solemn before.

I NEED MY PARENTS!!

Call me sissy or spoiled if you want..

My life's important so i don't go haywire on the slightest little things *which i am now which makes me really upset about it*

I just don't care anymore...

I'm tired of this crap..

Just do whatever you want and I'll just shut myself up.

Truly yours,

TIRED & GIVING UP

Couldn't get any better than this

STRESS~

had a looooooong winding week and more to come,

with all the workload overloading

with all the stupidity of actions and words,

with all the camps and lots of used clothes,

with all the exams with no revision,

with all the project and reports,

with all the folios and GERKO

I had ENOUGH!!!

stop compiling more burden on me..

I'm just a normal human being..

I have my limits too regardless I'm a PPC student or not

Do you think i'm a *starts cursing* robot?

Don't be surprise to see I'm the one breaking the norm.

But for now the only way I can vent out my anger is through writing.

When house mates are as crappy chaps that talks all about boys,

When parents are far away to hear my sorrows,

When time limit my ability to contact others,

This is the only solution I have left..

Hoping some of the bad karma slips through my fingers as I'm typing.

So I cant attain some peace and calm mind.

Astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah, astaghfirullah ...

Dear Allah please bless me with strength and courage to overcome all the hardships in life.

I know the more YOU test me is the more you care,

and I hope this makes me closer to YOU than before..ameen~

Eid Day

HAPPY EID DAY TO ALL THE MUSLIMS!

Though Eid this year is on Friday. it was celebrated as extravaganza as ever! It's not because of the green packet that the kids get, it's not about the colorful clothes we wear, it's not the delicious delicacies that we eat, but it's the togetherness that makes it all worthy of experience.

My day started with the old tradition BALIK KAMPUNG! I get to see almost all of my uncles and aunties. Get together with my cousins and nephews, gossip here and there, snap pictures and steal each other's food all over the place as we go =P

Then we made a trip to all the related grandmas and grandpas, since my late granpa still has siblings, so we visited them all.

Later after touring the close ones, we went to my dad's generations of cousins and nephews..it's surprising to know that until today they are still close and they humor almost everywhere possible. I had really nice time laughing at every house that we go.

Since i'm too old to get packets of cash..and i know i wont get them if i keep quiet, so i asked my aunties and uncles for my 3 years of missing green packets..hahaha they surely didn't disappoint me...of course i get all the faces and the sarcasm, but i know they are all joking around so i dont mind since i too joke around with them (^__^)

But of course I'll ask for forgiveness after claiming my packets and wish them well.

Okay off i go to my aunty's house..later! *this is auto saved right after i've finish writing*

Now it's already night, so like always my big family came down to visit. the whole house was flooded with people. My friends came as well since they've nagging to have rendang last raya..haha they got what they've wished for...and i hope you like the rendang peeps.

Overall raya for today was a little bit incomplete since i'm waiting for my takbir from my smelly buns =) Hope i can hear it tonight..yeay!

Eid night

Yeay today is my first night celebrating eid with my beloved family.

Like always Dad will make Rendang for us to savor and Mom will be busy nagging me with my sister to change the sheets, the curtain, the mattresses, the cushions, the carpets and all the changeable things..luckily the house has undergone some construction that has lessen the routine of changing those things mention above...hahaha but the scene was always something worthy to experience.

Tomorrow's theme is red..so all of us will be wearing red except Dad since he bought a cream colored Baju Melayu... *wonder what will the fiance be wearing*

Despite all the things happening today, I still feel this years Eid isn't as merry as always..maybe it's due to the economic downfall that makes people spend less for Eid and save more for rainy days =)

Having said that, Eid will be the most memorable thing for me because I have an additional family to share my happiness with..there's always first times for everything right? teehehe

Just to share with you some of the pictures that I took just now.. =)

For the kids

For the BIG kids

Mom bought a new carpet earlier today

The porch filled with colors

Pelita for Eid night

My neighbour's house

The pelita queuing up at the mini garden

Dad firing up the fire crackers..huge bang!

The Eid cards decorated..yup fiance yours pasted there too =)

Random one month!

Phew..lots of things in my head right now...sadly it's not for blogging purposes but coursework stuff..yeah the same old same old.

For the 1st time I have tons and tons of workload that needs to be completed before the 19th and yet I'm still writing this piece..haha *stress*

So much to write so little time..so I'll just put in random pictures for the whole one month of in Penang or somewhere else.. =)

*note this is all totally random and don't ask me why..I just feel like it*

With the fiance on the way to Penang for KPLI intake

Green curry chicken made by Bock

Cooked vege made by Dutch

Rendang ayam made by Dutch

Dutch and Bock together with us breaking fast at Tesco

This is for KRS - Ikatan Bunga Geti

The back benches club - From left Pali, Krol and Bock

The UK-nians - From left Anis (she's the married one), Rem, Faezah, Mala, Ijad, Hajare

Zazu napping in class

Dutch and I at the Gelanggara for weekly assembly

Oh yeah since Eid Day is coming real soon... We would like to wish all the Muslims out there, a very Happy Eid Day! May we celebrate Eid in modesty but merry.

To my friends scattered all over the world, enjoy Eid in perantauan, I'm sure you guys are going to miss the feeling once you've gone home for good. I know I did - well a LITTLE! =)

Selamat Hari Raya everybody!!

From us Aji & Ija

Merdeka!

Last Wednesday my IPG Kampus Pulau Pinang had this assembly regarding our National Day. It was held in Gelanggara. Not much to tell actually. It's just like the ones we had back in school - with the performance and all. It's just that I felt I left school for so long and this particular assembly reminded me of how much I miss my school.

Anyways, the assembly started with dances from the Kadazans, Bajau, Indian, Chinese and Malay. Then they all danced in harmony together with a national song. I was entertained particularly with the Indian and Malay dances since they brought up strong choreography with a little twist to them.

The Malay Dance

The Chinese dance

The Indian dance

The Malay dance

Dancing all the cultural dances

After that the Tuan Penagarah, En. Rijeng Jahet (yeah the tuan pengarah's name is weird..he must be from Sabah or Sarawak) officiated the ceremony by cutting the ribbon so the banner will scroll down upholding this year's theme: 1 Malaysia Menjana Transformasi.

Later, there were some poem recitation, choir and sing along with the Sudirman song from a few of the PISMP batches, and that marks the end of the assembly.

Poem recitation

Singing the national songs together

The celebration over all was some whet refreshing to have once in awhile. It makes me reminiscence my young days as a student. It's also a way to channel my stress with the level of workload and make up classes I have over this few weeks. It isn't easy to become a teacher. You have to know all the theories of learning, important procedures for both the curriculum and co-curriculum in schools and much much more.

Let us pray for the best so I can contribute good teenagers to soon rule the country insyAllah =)

(This in taken in the class while we are busy trying out our KRS uniforms)

Happy National Day!

Life in IPG

Here I am writing again after a few weeks of abandoning my blog. There are lots of things happening in a nick of time.

First was my fever. I was suspected having dengue after I went to the clinic two weeks ago. So I ended up stuffing myself with 100Plus and coconut drink to cool down the body temperature and increase my platelet count to the normal norm.

Then, not being well, I had my engagement on Saturday. Almost all of my uncles and aunties came down to help out. Thank you so much for lighten up the burden. Since I wasn't feeling that well, my happiness isn't portrayed as expected. But deep inside, I feel relieved for I am now owned by my smelly buns and I promise myself to be the best for him and not let him down. I think after having this special bond, we're somewhat closer to each other much better than before. Alhamdulillah =)

Right after, I then went off straight to Penang to further my KPLI for almost one year. Being in Penang makes me miss home so much. With the solemn infrastructure in IPG, with the work load piling up day after day, with the peers what has been clustered from their university days and with the high hopes from the lecturers for the PPC students, I personally feel I'm carrying a great burden on my shoulders. I hope to stay strong and maintain my grades so I wont be a disappointment to the country and the society.

Overall, my weeks has been a little hectic with all the good and bad occasions cropping up here and there. Maybe this week my life would be a little bit relaxed since my condition is getting much better plus now I have a loving fiancé who supports me every tick of the clock. Though we're far, I just feel you're just right beside me all the way through. Thank you so much fiancé for caring...your gentleness just swept me away each day. I love you <3<3<3

i4p

It's decided!

I'll further my Diploma of Education in Pulau Pinang.

For one year insyAllah I'll be accustom to their lifestyle and food

*Oh boy..food~ not seem to be excited on that part*

But for the sake of the country I'll behave and try to accept unlikable things that I've put barrier to.

Hey look at the bright side, I'll be experiencing lots of different students there..plus people said Pulau Pinang is a nice shopping place *hopefully*

The expenses might be a little bit sky rocket, so I should probably layout my budget so I can have same rainy day savings.

Map to the campus.

Boyfriend please take note.. you might want to google map for more details =)

Note to self: No need for medical check up and keep available house for rent as back up plan

Will be checking this link regularly for more information.

Thus tonight I have to pack up my clothes..

*note: Thursdays are batik day*

*note: For ko-ku will be wearing white and darked-colored tracksuit*

*note: Bag for books will have to use the brown bag - NO SCHOOL BAG*

*note: Two black heeled shoes for classes will bring one pair of flat shoe for walking around*

*note: Important documents to be certified and bring original copies*

I think that's the gist of it. Will update more for mental note.

Counting days

Last 2 days my family and I went to Jalan T.A.R for some serious shopping..like seriously!

And along the way we grabbed these cute boxes..

Whatever for you say?? You'll soon know *wink2*

But the best part was I get to see my bald bunny once again after a looooonnngggg~ wait!

Teehehe I always love his company..

Only a few more days till the big day!

I'm so excited!

Lots of things need to be done and..

Alhamdulillah everything seems so well planned.

Hopefully it will run smoothly insyAllah.

Here's to the new chapter of life!

*smiling from ear to ear*

Four more days left..

Babies!

Yup I've said it! today's post is all on baby pictures!

I went to my uncle's aqiqah for his 1st newborn grand daughter named Alesya Rifqah.

Note:I like "Rifqah" maybe I'll put it on one of my daugthers too.. (>.<) *dreams on~*

Anyways, the reason was because most my cousins are married and this is the year where all the crying babies comes out from their mother's womb. I had trouble remembering all of their names..since my family tree grows more branches each year =)

So enjoy!

This is Zafran

This is Irfan

This is Afiqah

This is Iris

This is..umm *Abg Shukor sorry I can't remember your 3rd son's name*

Now for the celebrated babies!

The goody bags given to those who came

*I got the kids goody bag and the adult goody bag..yeah I'm that good in camouflaging *

This is the tray for cutting the newborn's hair before it'll shaved bald

Honey to be given to the baby after the cutting their hair

And money will be usually given as sadaqah to the young ones

My aunty snipping bits of Aleesya's hair

This is Nadiya - one of the babies cutting hair ceremony

The ceremony was for two baby girls.

This is the cerebrated baby - Aleesya Rifqah

She's one month old now

*she's cute just like me*

I too excited to even think what do my babies look like =P

Hope they are cute and not fat babies..

Mommy won't let you be plump!

But might watch out for their aunties: Faz, Lyn and Chea Fann giving them junk food as they come along..teehehe

USAGI!

No words just two cute as EVER bunny pictures that I want to share...

And these pictures marks something even greater.

I don't want to spoil the mood of curiosity.

So keep following my posts! =)

Presenting...

Chesnut the fat bunny

and...

Snowflake the cuddly bunny

They are toooooooooo cute!! I feel like squashing them in my hands =P